Answers

I like answers.

I like black and white, yes or no answers, especially when it comes to my life.

When I ask God “Why?” I want an explanation.

When I ask Him to give me something, I want it now.

Something I’m learning is that God doesn’t always need to give me the answers.

I don’t always need the answers.

But there is something I do need.

I do need faith that God has my best interest in mind.

I need faith that He knows the whole plan for my life.

I need faith that He’s in control of it all.

And with the help of those around me, that faith is growing.

God Himself is helping me.

Y’all I’m a work in progress. I’m sure you are too. But faith is one of the most important things we need.

Have faith in God. Pray. Be around people who have great faith. Trust the little things to God, then the bigger things come easier.

Read your Bible. Devotions are a great way to gain faith and trust.

Your life will be so much easier when you have a little faith.

It’s a relief knowing you don’t have to figure out your life alone.

It’s a relief knowing you don’t have to have all the answers.

God’s got it.

Have faith.

Trust.

Be Still

Y'all I'm an intern! I just have to celebrate that fact for a second, then I can move on.

I've just started, but I already am learning a lot. God has shown me something that He has been trying to teach me for a long time... It is okay to be still. It is okay, even good, to just sit in quiet, in silence, doing nothing, worrying about nothing.

I have felt such a sense of peace since I have started accepting that.

Accepting that I don't always have to be rushing, always have to be doing something, always have to be looking way off into the future, is a process.

But I'm beginning to learn.

I keep claiming this verse, Jeremiah 29:11. I think I've included it in many of my posts. But in case you don't know, here is what it says... "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord..." The verse goes on to say the plans are for good, not evil, to give a future and a hope.

I'm a person that clings to my plans. I hold on, try to figure it all out, and have a hard time trusting God with things.

God has been nudging me, reminding me how He loves me, how His plans are better than my own, are better than the things I may want right now... He reminds me not to trade in what I want now for what I could have in the future that is so much better than what I would get now.

He is teaching me not to trade in artificial love for real, true love.

He is teaching me not to be overwhelmed, but simply to take things a day at a time, and trust He's got a plan bigger than I could understand.

He is teaching me a lot of things.

I'm excited for what these next four months hold.

New Beginnings

Sometimes God needs to bring us to our knees in order for us to get the point.

He had to do that to me yesterday.

In a ball on the floor, crying, asking God for help.

That’s what happened to me.

See, I thought I would do things my way. (It’s totally worked in the past right???? NOT.)

I made stupid decisions that hurt people around me. Hurt myself. Hurt my relationship with
God.

And at first, I justified it. I didn’t feel bad. But then, I realised it was wrong, at least in my head. My heart took longer.

But then yesterday, it hit.

I thought I would kneel and pray, but it wound up being a ball leaning on my bed, crying, completely broken.

I realised what I had done. I realised the chaos around me. I realised the danger I was in.

I decided I didn’t want that for me anymore. I didn’t want to be doing things on my own.

I once again realised I can’t do things on my own. (Shocker, I know. Not like I’ve written about it 1,000 times... *insert eye roll*)

And you know what?

God helped me.

He didn’t have to.

He didn’t have any reason to.

I had turned against Him.

He owed me nothing.

He never owes me anything.

But still He helps.

I’m thankful that God is faithful, even when my heart is unfaithful to Him.

And that’s what I’m working on in this New Year. Being more faithful to the One Who is Most Faithful. Being more faithful in all areas of my life.

Not letting sin, not letting my desires, come between me and God, or between me and others.

Trusting that God has the plan, and that He’s got control, even when it feels everything is spiralling out of control.

What are you going to do?

Why not join me?

We’re all in this together. It’s kinda like High School Musical. :P